Monday, July 24, 2017

A Single Rose

This morning I woke up feeling radiant with potential. I rolled over to my husband and smiled as he slept with his mouth slightly slacked from the relaxation that had finally possessed his entire body. I lay silently listening for the stirring grunts of our son. Once I confirmed that he was undisturbed, I smiled as I quietly slipped out of bed to seize my opportunity to cook breakfast uninterrupted. Already as I round the corner to the kitchen my mind is racing with ideas on how to achieve my husband and I's goals this year. A rush of nervousness floods me as I consider the financial changes we have already begun the process of making, the pending move weeks away, our new currently hypothetical video blog, getting my company back off of the ground, and the potentially stressful decisions we have to make for our family. Even writing these words, my anxiety increases with the potential of the future. Then I remember my Lord and breathe His peace in deeply. I realize I had elected to skip the dishes the night before so I would need to take a few minutes to clean prior to cooking. Cleaning always re-purposes my brain to feel productive when life gets even a little overwhelming so I welcome the mess. I grab the baby monitor to listen for my family waking and start cleaning. As I'm cleaning I stumble on a single rose my husband bought me the day before. I wasn't certain where to place it since it was only one rose, it didn't belong in a large vase. I unwrapped it from its plastic wrapping and spun around the kitchen considering where would be a sentimental location I could view it still. It had no place.

I stood in my kitchen and let my mind wander. My husband bought me my rose on our way back from picking him up from the Sunrail after work. We stopped to get gas and he returned from the cashier with a single rose. At the time I was so grateful. I love flowers. My husband gets them on rare and random occasions for me. I actually caught myself thinking about how different our expressions of romance are. We haven't had a grate deal of cash due to a genuine series of unfortunate events and emotionally, I begin to feel like our romance has unfortunately died down as a result. Holding this single rose again now I realized how much it had not. We were just different. We didn't fit anywhere. I created a space for the rose on the window of the kitchen looking into the dinning room and garage.

Perhaps the most distinct challenge for me in our marriage is understanding its uniqueness. Look at its timeline of events and challenges: from start to finish, who knew that what a great love this would be?

June 7, 2016. My life changed to be rocked in ways I never anticipated. I remember when I saw him leaning back in a chair precisely placed in the shade of the tent. I saw that he noticed me. I was focused on spending time with the young ladies I mentored initially but a game and a dance and he had won by trust to hold my party favor candy bag (had I been aware of his affinity for sweets I may not have handed him the bag so freely). I turned to one of my young ladies and said, "He's going to use that bag to get my number." Sure enough. He bartered returning my candy in exchange for my number. I giggled and gave it to him. Shortly thereafter, he asked me to go see a movie with him that evening. I canceled my initial plans and convinced one of my good friends to go to the movies with us. He and I talked for the first half of the movie and the second half I fell asleep (which he courteously brings to my recollection anytime we discuss a movie). I explained to him that indicated my comfort because I rarely fall asleep on any movie. It also did not stop him from stating that he was going to marry me by the end of our date.

Today that man is my husband and father to my son. Washout. A man seeking the face of Yahweh everyday through his family, music, and lifestyle. Oh, how my heart abounds with love for this man! I am grateful to share our single rose journey with you all. We may not belong anywhere. It may be very different but we hope you can make space for us somewhere. We have struggled which has produced growth in us. When our love was slowly budding, we enjoyed the sweet bliss that was simply us. We trails come we remain committed to the Lord and each other. We are committed to Christ, family, entrepreneurship, the community and music.

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